My day began at 4am with two cups of strong coffee and some gratitude journalling.
Between 4.15am - 4.45am I was doing an indoor aerobics workout in my living room.
And at 4.50am until 6am, I was sitting on the curb drinking tea and taking photographs and videos of the Lunar Eclipse.
This morning as I sat with the moon. I became really philosophical.
I was so moved by the moment, I couldn't stop crying.
I've actually experienced a similar moment before..
It happened on New Years Eve 2000 -- The New Millennium. I was 22 and I wanted to change my life so much.
As I stood at The Royal Perth Yacht Club in my 1940s beaded dress and rosebud curls, watching the fireworks -- surrounded by thousands of others..
I felt like I was by myself watching the fireworks.
I had an intuitive inner-knowing that my life was about to change in an irreversible way.
And it did:
In the year 2000:
I lived on the streets for nearly three weeks all up.
I would spread my legs so I had somewhere to stay, on cold nights.
By my third week in Melbourne, I had landed the lead role in a professional play at La Mama theatre and found a room in a share house.
My life has two acts.
They are two VERY DIFFERENT Vanessa's.
But this morning had a rare beauty about it.
Once again, I had an intuitive inner knowing that my life IS about to change in a big way.
I was so PRESENT and accepting and peaceful, hence the tears.
At the start of the year. I didn't even want to live anymore. I had allowed circumstances, people and financial hardship to push me down.
And here I am 6 months later after a wonderful month travelling Vietnam.
The sun has entered my life again.
My confidence is back.
I feel mentally and physically STRONG.
And doors are opening.
I will grab every opportunity that is presented to me in the upcoming months.
I am becoming who I am.
Every single morning with my second cup of coffee. I write down 10 things that I am grateful for.
Starting the day with gratitude helps to keep my mind positive and makes me realise how fortunate I am.
Today I am making my gratitude list public.
I am grateful to my brother Paul for a suggestion he made a few months back.
I am grateful that I live in an apartment that has heating.
I am grateful that I got to spend the last night of my Dad's life with him.
I am grateful to all the female libertines throughout history. Just the knowledge that you existed once, helps keep me sane.
I am grateful for science.
I am grateful to Dr. Bernie Seigel and his work.
I am grateful that I followed my intuition and didn't marry or have children in my 20s or 30s. It was the RIGHT decision for me.
I am grateful that all were saved in the Thai Cave rescue.
I am grateful for porn.
I am grateful for every single day that I am granted. My life is a blessing.
I am grateful for Arch - Angels.
My name is Vanessa de Largie.