My day began at 4am with two cups of strong coffee and some gratitude journalling.
Between 4.15am - 4.45am I was doing an indoor aerobics workout in my living room.
And at 4.50am until 6am, I was sitting on the curb drinking tea and taking photographs and videos of the Lunar Eclipse.
This morning as I sat with the moon. I became really philosophical.
I was so moved by the moment, I couldn't stop crying.
I've actually experienced a similar moment before..
It happened on New Years Eve 2000 -- The New Millennium. I was 22 and I wanted to change my life so much.
As I stood at The Royal Perth Yacht Club in my 1940s beaded dress and rosebud curls, watching the fireworks -- surrounded by thousands of others..
I felt like I was by myself watching the fireworks.
I had an intuitive inner-knowing that my life was about to change in an irreversible way.
And it did:
In the year 2000:
I lived on the streets for nearly three weeks all up.
I would spread my legs so I had somewhere to stay, on cold nights.
By my third week in Melbourne, I had landed the lead role in a professional play at La Mama theatre and found a room in a share house.
My life has two acts.
They are two VERY DIFFERENT Vanessa's.
But this morning had a rare beauty about it.
Once again, I had an intuitive inner knowing that my life IS about to change in a big way.
I was so PRESENT and accepting and peaceful, hence the tears.
At the start of the year. I didn't even want to live anymore. I had allowed circumstances, people and financial hardship to push me down.
And here I am 6 months later after a wonderful month travelling Vietnam.
The sun has entered my life again.
My confidence is back.
I feel mentally and physically STRONG.
And doors are opening.
I will grab every opportunity that is presented to me in the upcoming months.
I am becoming who I am.
My name is Vanessa de Largie.