I have felt sexual my entire life.
Before I started masturbating, I would fantasize about a group of men touching my cunt, my breasts, my mouth and my anus.
I was 16 when I lost my virginity but I wish I'd lost it earlier.
I said 'no' to so many boys because I read that the first time would hurt and make me bleed.
But those things didn't happen to me -- it SLID right in.
And all I could think of was how many cocks I'd missed out on SLAYING.
At 18, I asked my elderly parents if I could pose for 'nudie' magazines (by myself and in sexual acts with other women).
I was fortunate enough to have liberated parents who believed in me and supported me in whatever I wanted to do.
With their support, by the time I was 20, I'd been --
A home-girl in picture mag
I'd done a tittie and arse feature shoot under a pseudonym for a UK Mag
I'd done a featured explicit sex shoot with another female. (eating her cunt that day for the shoot, still gets me off all these years later).
In the coming weeks, I will begin to post glimpses of my past on this blog.
I'm very proud of my past and every nude shoot, film and video I've ever done. I live my life in full awareness and with a fuckload of pride.
It does not take away from my intellect.
It does not take away from my writing.
It does not take away from my acting.
It does not take away from my education.
It does not take away from my abilities, skills or talents.
It does not take away from who I am as a human being.
Or how much success I can achieve as a woman.
It does not lessen my value as a person.
The only person who decides 'my value' is me.
The only person who defines 'who I am' is me.
Every day I face bias and censors.
Every day I face judgment and people looking down their nose at me for what they THINK I represent.
Every day I have to fight and scratch and arse-lick to have my words and voice heard in any publication.
And that's totally okay. Because I am living TRUTHFULLY. And whether they try and silence me or not, I will find a way to keep sharing my ideas, my opinions and what I know in my heart.
Sexual freedom and expression is a right for ALL women throughout the world. There are no rules. There are no rights or wrongs in how one empowers themselves. People that tell you otherwise are speaking HORSESHIT.
I'm a sexual woman living freely and I will continue to chronicle that journey through film, writing, poetry, acting, performance and art until the day I die.
So here's to that!
About The Victress
The Victress is a blog primarily dedicated to feminist issues and fierce female sexuality. It is run by Vanessa de Largie.
The Victress may be many things but she is always victorious, valorous and volatile.
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